5 Months -
A sweet reminder of our girl while we were in Colorado
It is really hard to believe it has been 5 months since Aspen was embraced in a big bear hug by Jesus. Trying to process all that has been thrown at us over the last few months has been challenging to say the least. Not only do we have to process our own emotions, but we are also having to help our kids process their emotions. We are still in the midst of the legal world, trying to work on our partnership with Txdot, and about to start full force back into activities and school. Life doesn’t stop, even on the days that we feel like we can’t breathe or take a single step. I feel like the shock has started to wear off and we are all really starting to process the trauma, feelings, and the reality of this path we are walking. I’ve hard more moments of questioning God. Why did this have to happen, what is His plan in all of this, are we even strong enough to walk this path. I am having to constantly refix my eyes on Jesus. The trauma, sadness, anguish, fear, anger, frustration, joy, exhaustion, & hope are all mixed together. As I have conversations with The Lord He continues to speak into my identity as a daughter. I am loved, valued and seen. He understands every feeling and every thought. He created us in His image which means He created every feeling. I am so thankful that while we are temporarily separated from Aspen in the physical world, we are not and never will be separated in the Spiritual world. We don’t have to experience the complete separation that God and Jesus had to experience. Jesus was completely and totally separated from His Father and because of this sacrifice, we never have to experience this.
Matthew 27:46- “About three in the afternoon Jesus cried out in a loud voice, My God, My God, why have you forsaken me,” When my grief feels overpowering I try and remember that God and Jesus felt this same feeling and try to imagine how sweet that reunion was for them. I long for the day where we get to experience that reunion, but I know that The Lord has big plans for us on this journey. His name will be glorified! The lost will find Jesus, Hope will be restored, the broken will be healed. Jesus in Victor!
As we get ready to embrace the next season here are a few ways you can be praying for our family.
-Pray for endurance. Court is draining and brings back up all of the feelings of the trauma.
-Pray we can continue to walk in forgiveness. We still strongly feel that there is a difference between forgiveness and justice. It is a moment by moment choice to try and choose to continue to forgive.
-Pray for the kids and I as we get ready to jump back into school. I feel like there are still so many days where at least one of us is mentally/emotionally struggling .
-Pray for our partnership with TxDot. I will be sharing more about this soon, but we are praying for many opportunities to share around the Big Country and possibly around the State of Texas.
We still covet your prayers, love, & messages. This isn’t a journey we could walk alone. Thank you for sharing Aspen’s story! God is connecting us with so many amazing people who want to join us on this journey. We look forward to sharing more about some sweet partnerships very soon.
“The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face shine on you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace.” Number 6:24-26